Languor

Monday mornings are always tiring, but Monday mornings after an exhausting weekend? It’s a whole new kind of death.

The part where I chatted with you was the only good part about my morning. If you weren’t on the other line, I honestly would never have woken up. And when you went offline I felt my fatigue kick in, even though I went to slept relatively early. The retreat was that tiring.

I made my coffee stronger than usual because I knew I would have a long day ahead. In my first subject, English, we watched a movie entitled “What About Bob?” The movie had nothing to do with our English subject; our prof just decided to reward us with a movie related to our major.

The movie stars Bill Murray as a multi-phobic, neurotic man who follows his intelligent yet ignorant psychiatrist all the way to New Hampshire (where the psychiatrist is spending vacation with his family). I thought the film was pretty funny. Only I could understand certain references and innuendos because I grew up in America. For example, when they showed “The Brady Bunch” I was the only one who could relate.

In my developmental psychology class, we finished a discussion about Middle Childhood. We talked a lot about anxiety and neuroticism, so I opened up to my professor and classmates about my anxiety. I told them why I always play 2Fuse or another game on my cellphone before any quiz or test. I explained that playing games is the only way I can get rid of my nerves so that I don’t get test anxiety. I also explained that I picked up smoking because my anxiety was very severe. I was happy to report, however, that I’ve quit smoking and I’m finding other ways to cope with my anxiety and low emotional stability. My classmates and professor were very proud of me.

I don’t think I’ve told you a lot about my condition. I’d love to tell you more when we talk on the phone. 🙂

Because I’m a scholar, I have 14 hours of work to do by the end of the semester. Some people have to do 30 or 40 hours, but my scholarship is mostly academic and I have to maintain a very high average, so my hours are lower than most scholars. I worked from 12-4. I was supposed to work until 6, but I asked someone to cover my last two hours. I wanted to go home and greet you a good morning.

Anyway, I hope you have an amazing day today! I love you. Always try to aim for happiness and self-fulfillment. Shit is destined to happen, but what you do in those crappy situations is what defines you.

Mmmmmmmmmwah!

xoxo
Cassie

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First Monthsary

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Exactly one month ago
Lots of sparks flew

I did not expect
To fall so fast
But you were so lovable
I let go of my doubts, at last

Everyday since then
I’ve learned to love you more
From the way you bat your eyes
To the way you work the floor

I couldn’t be happier
To be with someone like you
So happy monthsary, baby!
My best friend, my boyfriend, my love so true.

(I tried! Haha. Happy monthsary, Michael! I love you!)

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(This is going to be a really short entry because I can’t think of anything to say. I’ve already told you everything I was going to blog. I’m sorry! I hope you enjoy this picture of my beautiful chemistry book.) ❤

I can think of about twenty billion things I’d much rather do than study. The first thing out of twenty billion is to talk to you.

I know it’s selfish of me to think this, but I secretly hope you wake up so that I can chat with you. I’m lonely.

It’s these times where I need you here the most. I always need you, but when I’m tired and lonely that’s when I could really use your loving embraces and electrifying kisses.

I need you. I need your loving embraces and electrifying kisses.

xoxo
Cassie

Needs

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Roller coaster

Today was an interesting day. Today has had its fair share of ups and downs, sort of like a roller coaster.

Do you remember that chemistry quiz I thought I failed a while back? Well, it turns out I got a near-perfect score. I ended up getting an A! I was also one of the few who passed. Because my score was high, I broke the curve for everyone else. Needless to say I received many phony compliments and words of congratulations. Tough love.

But, my spirits were dampened once I took my lab tests. Now I’m POSITIVE I failed.

I heard “Marry Me” twice today: once on the way to the Bureau of Immigration and and again at the mall. I also heard a remix of “Sweet Escape” on the radio. I had another one of those crazy throwback moments!

Because we’re American citizens, we have to fill out an annual report and pay a fee for our visas. The Bureau of Immigration gave us a hard time and we spent a lot of time there AND we still have to go back tomorrow! Ugh.

I couldn’t help but smile as I read your blog. I had a hard time understanding it because most of the Filipino words you used were very deep. After I read it, I thought about how well I could write in Filipino without using a translator or dictionary. One of these days I will write a love letter for in Filipino.

I hope you have an amazing day today! I love you! :*

xoxo
Cassie

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Spirals

I’m so mad at myself. I feel like I’m on a downward spiral. Every time I feel like I’m doing better in school, something always comes up which proves me otherwise. I feel like I always take two steps up the ladder only to fall back to the ground again.

I went to school in a great mood. But as soon as I walked into my first class, I discovered that my portfolio was due today and I had no idea. They claimed it was announced on Friday but I can’t remember anything being said.

…But I think God heard my prayers, because the prof forgot to collect the portfolios.

I’ve learned my lesson (again). I can’t let bad situations get to me.

But anyway. Enough of that.

I read your blog and I was so happy to know that you are seriously considering studying here. You won’t regret going to Ateneo. I can promise you the education is at par with the colleges in America. Their standards are high and the quality is great. And Ateneo has a lot of foreign students as well as a special organization.

I love you, baby! I really appreciate you for trying. I can’t thank you enough for everything you’ve done for me. You are truly the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. 🙂

xoxo
Cassie

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Friday Madness

This blog post is going to be filled with different ramblings and they have no connection to each other whatsoever. You have been warned.

My Friday has been quite eventful. My day started off well because I was able to talk to you. My day can never be bad whenever I start it off talking to you, baby.
 
I got to school 40 minutes early as usual. (You know me, I hate being late.) And while I was stressing out over the three quizzes I THOUGHT I had to take (I ended up only taking one. The other two got moved. I was freaking out over nothing!) I still had a great morning at school.
 
While I normally daydream in English, I didn’t this time because today’s class was quite interesting. We spent a good thirty minutes talking about my prof’s theory of how the Chinese will conquer the Philippines very soon. He even used Sun Tzu’s “Art of War” to support his claim. His explanation is very convincing and even frightened me a little.
 
Remember when I told you I was thinking about enrolling in a basic Chinese language course? Yeah, I think I’m going to sign up for one very very very very very soon. Just in case.
 
My classes ended at 10am (!!!!!) today because my last prof was absent. I crammed for one of my quizzes, took it, met up with a friend for lunch, crammed again for another quiz, went to see the prof, prof said I could take it on Monday, went to see another prof, prof wasn’t in her office, went home.
 
So because I’ve been chasing my professors all afternoon, I got really aggravated. I hate when I try to see a prof during his/her scheduled consultation hours and the prof isn’t there! It was such a waste of my time. While I waited for a good thirty minutes, I thought of a great app idea: Find My Prof!
 
With Find My Prof, there will be two different kinds of sign ins: Student and Professor. Students will register as students and professors will register as, well, professors.
 
The app acts as a sort of “GPS” for students. However, the professor gets to approve which students get to track him/her. Also, the professor can only be tracked if he or she signs into the app. This could be when a professor steps onto campus or something. 
 
It’s a wild idea, I know. If I was a professor I probably wouldn’t want students following my every move, but how cool would Find My Prof be?
 
I’m running errands with my dad as I type this. My day has been good so far. Of course I still miss you and my heart aches whenever I think about you, but I hold up better a little more each day.
 
I’m slowly getting used to our new routine. Talking to you is great, but I still miss being able to hold you and kiss you.
 
Just 300-something more days, baby.
 
xoxo
Cassie
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#throwbackthursday

While I was procrastinating I was browsing through one of my favorite websites (Thought Catalog) when I came across an interesting article: http://thoughtcatalog.com/rob-fee/2014/01/50-fantastic-songs-from-the-2000s-that-you-forgot-existed/ “50 Fantastic Songs From The 2000s That You Forgot Existed”. While I was reading it, I felt as if I had been teleported back in time. So, I thought I’d make my own list of “Songs From The 2000s I Forgot Existed”. But these songs have all mean something to me, because all the songs I put were popular when we were in elementary school and they stick out in my mind fairly well. I hope by posting this list on WordPress I immortalize these songs somehow. I know I’m going to forget them one day, but hopefully I will see this list again and remember these songs and all the memories they hold. Each song has its own memory and story behind it.

  1. Bowling For Soup – 1985
  2. The Click Five – Just The Girl
  3. Yellowcard – Ocean Avenue
  4. Simple Plan – I’d Do Anything
  5. Simple Plan – Perfect (and just about every other Simple Plan song)
  6. Enrique Iglesias – Do You Know
  7. Gwen Stefani – Sweet Escape
  8. Akon – Smack That
  9. Linkin Park – In The End
  10. Avril Lavigne – Complicated (and Sk8er Boi)
  11. Jojo – Leave Get Out
  12. Kevin Lyttle – Turn Me On
  13. Shaggy – It Wasn’t Me
  14. Ryan Cabrera – On The Way Down
  15. All-American Rejects – Dirty Little Secret
  16. DHT – Listen To Your Heart
  17. Green Day – Boulevard of Broken Dreams
  18. The Killers – Mr. Brightside
  19. Fall Out Boy – Dance, Dance
  20. Fall Out Boy – Sugar We’re Going Down
  21. Green Day – Wake Me Up When September Ends
  22. Cascada – Everytime We Touch
  23. Jojo – Too Little Too Late
  24. Gym Class Heroes – Cupid’s Chokehold
  25. Lucas Prata – And She Said
  26. S Club 7 – Never Had a Dream Come True
  27. Maroon 5 – Sunday Morning
  28. Fountains Of Wayne – Stacy’s Mom
  29. Hilary Duff/Lizzie McGuire – Hey Now (What Dreams Are Made Of) DON’T JUDGE ME
  30. Rihanna – Umbrella
  31. Lifehouse – You And Me

Give me some more songs to add! Or better yet, why don’t you make your own list? I’d love to see your list of songs. 🙂

Do you feel old yet? I love you!

 

xoxo

Cassie

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